I've been messing a lot these past few months. I haven't been following the rules that I myself created. I let my mind get distracted and clouded but not now. Its amazing how meeting a random person can open your eyes back to who you really was. I thank you girl who's name I do not know but yet I talk to everyday. Today starts the 3 phases of getting myself back to awesomess!
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So after a long review I finally came up with the top 5 women you would not wanna date because of their jobs.
1- Lawyer
2- Politician
3- Police Officer/Government Agent
4- Stripper/Porn Star (this one was hard for me)
5- Psychiatrist
Now of course I have my reasons behind every one of these. I could never date a lawyer because I would never win an argument whether if I was right or wrong. I would never in my life date a politician because they lie! They all lie! They tell you what you want to hear just to get you on their side with no intention of actually fulfilling what they say. Now as for a police officer or government agent, you not gonna get away with anything dating one of those. They might even rough you up alittle in a argument. Would you really wanna live in fear lol I don't think so! Not gonna happen! Now everybody knows you can't date a stripper or a porn star because its hard to take them seriously. I understand every stripper and porn star isn't the same but still the job makes it difficult. Just knowing that every guy can go and see ur woman dance and get naked doesn't leave a good taste in my mouth. Even worse every guy being able to watch your gf have sex on camera to a guy that's not you has to be something that's horrible. How's that dinner conversation gonna be?!? Oh how was your day honey?! How many dicks did you have in my today?!? Like seriously cmon now!!! Last but not least I would never date a psychiatrist. I don't want nobody trying to get into my head and use my thoughts against me. Not cool at all because you know a woman will do that if she needs to get her way! Its just one of those things where I don't want her to bring her work home with her. I'm not a patient so don't try to treat me like one! So that is my top 5 list I will probably make another list of something else later on stay tuned for that!!!
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Recently had a conversation with my cousin jessica about signs in life. She just currently got her sign about the path she should go in life and yet I'm still waiting for my sign of a way out of something. Its been about a week n a half and I'm still looking for a sign for my situation and still haven't received it. I'm starting to lose hope but I was told to be patient and keep my head up and wait it out. I just need a lil something to show me that I'm going the right way or the wrong way.
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Why is it so hard to find the total package or even 3/4 of what your looking for? A question was asked of me, "what would I do that would make me happy that didn't involve money"? Truthfully after 3 days of thinking I couldn't think of an answer but now on the 4th day I found out my answer. The answer is me. I have to make myself happy. But off that subject now! Only one more month to go til christmas and also school will be out and I will know what school I will be attending next semester! I can't wait I'm excited I'm ready for a new change! I think I'm finally over my white girl fetish lol well I take that back no I'm not over it lol just saw one on tv and totally got distracted. I can be easily distracted by a lot of things. Women being the number 1. But not all the time! I'm really in the mood to dress up and go out somewhere dressy with a beautiful young lady but of course I don't have any options right now at this point so I have to go fishing lol.
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I feel like I haven't been doing what I really want to. I'm losing my awesomeness after I worked so hard to achieve level 3 of awesomeness. Its time for me to get back on track and leave the distractions behind. I need to go back to what made me who I am. There's always a story to how you became how you are and of course mines involves a girl who broke my year years ago and I promised myself I would never get back into that situation ever again. I know its not right to let your past dictate how you should live in the present depending on relationships but in my case because of my bad choices I have to. Its easier to "cut the fat" and take it as a loss and move on compared to suffering. I feel like its time to put myself back in the game. I'm ready to suit up and get going! No more letting a good thing pass me by I'm taking every opportunity that comes my way!!
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The last 3 years ive been getting trapped into these relationship webs. I never really realize what I'm doing until its too late. Of course I think that the girls know what they are doing when they trap me but I should know better then that. Never trust a big butt and a smile. Its hard these days to be able to tell the difference between a girl who is right for you for the long run and a girl that is just for right now. I think that's the situation all people face when it comes to a relationship. We always try to measure a relationship in length of time. Weeks months and years. If you do happen to be with that special person for the long run then they length won't matter. People tend to wear their emotions on their sleeves. My friends know when something is wrong and I'm not happy. Most friends won't say anything because they don't wanna be labeled a hater but there's nothing wrong with being a real friend and letting the person know why you don't like their significant other. I love my friends. They are very vocal about the choices I make and I do appreciate them for it. It shows really how much they care for me. Without the constant support from my friends I wouldn't be able to strive for the goals I set for myself. All my friends contribute to my life in different ways no matter how big or how small they all do something even if they don't think they have. Always keep your friends around and keep them close.
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So I'm currently dating a girl I have no business being with. Her potential meter is non existent. No drive to want to succeed to make herself a better person and is very content with the w*y her life is going. I on the other hand am not. I want success. I want to strive for better. I believe not wanting better is pathetic. Life is a mental game we play daily. And you need to keep up. You don't wanna fall behind because its hard trying to reach to the very top from the very bottom. Don't let anybody drag you down. You kick them off and continue pushing ahead. Don't be afraid to take a loss its apart of life. But always remember your life is what you make of it. Don't blame others or past relationships for the way you are now. You can always change. Its up to you to make the change. I stay devoted to everything I put my mind too either its relationships, school, or just life in general. Its not my job to push others to want to help themselves but I don't mind giving a little guidance along the way. I'll hold your hand but I won't carry you. You need to pick yourself off the ground, dust yourself off, and start walking.
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Friends...How many of us have them

You cant call everyone a friend. Most of the people you encounter arent your friends just people you know. Just because you hang out with them every once in a while they are not your friend, they are your associate. A friend is something more. Someone you can turn to in time of trouble. Someone who will hook you up with a fellow friend of theirs. Im happy to say that I have plenty of people who I can actually call my friends. I have some best buddies and best friends but a ton of associates.

A lazy lover

So I've finally encountered a lazy lover. I never knew that they existed I've only heard stories. You'll never know right away when you've encountered a lazy lover until your at that point of almost no return.
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Cutting the fat pt 1

So its close to the end of the year and I've decided to cut the fat with numerous individuals. Actually just females. I do it at the end of every year but this year its actually kinda hard because there's girls I haven't conquer sort a speak. A friend of mine once told me that its easier to get rid of someone that you care about rather then someone you haven't conquered. So there's this one girl who I really want to keep around but she's lazy and it makes me think she's gonna be a lazy lover and I can't have that. I started to care too much and I stopped being who I was. But now I'm back to kris! Kris krucial. The guy who plans on being legendary in many peoples eyes. A guy who is not scared to talk to any hot woman on the street, in a bar, restaurant, or party. I am who I am. I was created and I'm carrying on the legacy. I was created by women in failed relationships I had. The past women have ruined it for the future women. I doubt there's a woman out there who can tame me. If there is I would so like to meet her! she's most likely hott!!! Lol. Ill admit I'm a sucker for a big butt and big boobies lol
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Update.....

So its been a while since I've blogged and things have really been looking better. I have my appointment with the air force this past monday and it went very well. I believe doing this will help me along with my future. I have no gf at this time so its an easier decision to make. I'm still currently waiting to hear from Holy Names University they said they would be in contact with me by wednesday afternoon. I'm not really worried I know I will get in I just want confirmation.
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Today was a good day!

Today was an interesting day for me but I'm not complaining. First I got my haircut (It was very much needed) then went to sf with my potna to go see one of his friends. He didn't mention that his friend was a stripper so we was at the strip club for about 2 hrs. I must say it was my first experience there and I didn't know how to act. I felt like a fat kid in a candy shop it was buns everywhere. So being the strip club virgin my potna said he would treat me to my first stripper lap dance so I pretty much chilled with the same girl the whole time until she went on stage. But I must say strippers aren't bad people. They are single moms just trying to make money to support themselves and their children, they are also students trying to pay they way through school. You can't look down on strippers for what they do they trying to make money too and they nice and like to talk (mostly about what they wanna do in life) but its real cool. Lucious how to be the hottest one in there and the one I chilled with. She called me her new best friend lol. After that experience I went to visit my friend in fillmore and chilled with her for a while. Haven't seen her in like a year so it was good to see her and talk with her outside of the phone and on xbox live. So after all of that I came home exhausted lol today was one of the funnest days ever for me lol
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The best day of my life!!

Today was the best day of my life! The first thing that led up to today was yesterday when I petitioned to graduate to receive my first of many degrees. I will be receiving 2. One in liberal arts and another in Humanities. Im really proud of myself for completing the first step in my 3 step program. The second thing that happened was today when I was woken up by a phone call from Xbox saying that they fixed my xbox and they shipped it off today which was great. That was the best phone call I've had in a long time. The third thing was that my grades officially posted on the school website so that meant I was officially a graduate! It feels good knowing that I completed something that I finished. Seeing those 2 degrees on my wall will continue to motivate me to succeed for more. And the last most important thing was that I got accepted verbally by 2 universities for the Fall semester now I just gotta wait on the transcript and everything to go through so it can be official. Today was truly the best day of my life. It's funny because I didnt tell anybody about this but yet im blogging about it lol Anyway this weekend im read to kick it and celebrate!! I'll catch ya later!

Domino Effect...Again

So now its that time of year again and the domino effect is starting to take place. Its been a few months and hopefully it will end pretty soon. I knew this time was coming because 2010 started off way to good and now the domino effect is currently taking place but within the next month it will be over and I will be back on top of my game like always. I had to cut the fat with a few young ladies. It was for the best and I broke a rule and paid for it but it will next happen again. Im going to stick to the rule book that I wrote and follow them precisely from now on.

long distance vs lazy

Now this subject is something that has been bothering me for a minute now. Havent you noticed that sometimes the people you have more in common with are far away compared to another person who is closer to you? Through my years I have come into contact with alot of women, beautiful women i must say, who would be perfect for me but of course the distance becomes a issue and im not for the long distance thing, it just doesnt work out. Now if there is a person who likes you or is into you and they are close enough to see but it seems like its a long distance thing then thats just lazy. Now theres a difference between long distance and lazy and its quite obvious. For example I know a girl, a friend in her eyes ( but thats another story), who at one point lived literally 5 minutes away from me and always talked about hanging out and stuff like that but of course she was full of hot air but now she recently moved out to tracy and all of a sudden wants to make an attempt to hang out and stuff and im like no I dont want too you had a chance to when you were down the street. Shes the definition of a lazy friend. Not even being up to the standard of a friend just a somebody. Now with her being lazy in the beginning I eventually gave up and moved on to someone else to hang out with who wasnt lazy. She shouldnt be complaining to me about why I dont hit her up anymore, why I havent asked about hanging out! Well what do you think?!?!?! You cant expect for someone to sit around and put up with your laziness eventually they will move on and when you finally realize what happened its too late because to the other person you no longer exist.

Hmmmm...

My best friend told me last night that its time for me to be with a solid woman and be in a relationship that has meaning. After sleeping on it she was right. It is time for me to stop dating girls for the moment and think about being with someone for the long term future. its gonna be hard to find that special specific girl that I feel comfortable with but I think I maybe already found her I'm just not looking deep enough. Its much more complicated to actually be in a relationship then to just date. I just don't want a boring woman. I want a woman that I have so much things in common with that I can bring them around my friends and it won't be weird. I just don't want a weird gf period either because I don't have a lot of patience and that's mostly why I'm single now. Most of all I want a girl that wants to succeed and will help motivate me and support me in my ideas. I've dated too many girls in the past who were just there to be there but really had no purpose, no drive to wanna do anything and it just held me back. I wanna succeed and be fruitful in life and I want a woman with the same drive to wanna be successful. I made a promise to myself that I would be in a steady relationship by the end of this year and I'm determined to meet that goal.
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I did it!!!!!

Well I finally did it! I finally finished part 1 of my goal. Hopefully part 2 will be just as easy or easier. These past 2 years have been stressful and crazy. Juggling relationships, friends, and schoolwork is tough but can be done and I did it. By september I plan on having a gf, in a good college/university, and something else I can't really think of right now. I have a plan and so far I'm executing it. Now its time to execute part 2 of my plan!
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On My Way.....

Ok so I've officially hit in wall. It's the end of the semester and I've truly tried my best this summer session and now I've reached the end. I have a quiz and final test in Geogrpahy this coming week and also my final paper in English that I've been writing for a while now on Genetic Engineering. I know what your thinking and no I did not choose that subject it was given to me. This will probably be the best paper I've ever written in my life. It's like almost saying my life depends on this paper. Have you ever put your heart and soul into something knowing that it has to be the best ever but yet you still fall short? I swear that has to be the story of my life lol But this year I believe that I strived and got through alot of stuff that I would usually run away from.I'm proud of myself. It's been a rough 2 years for me trying to recover and get myself back on track but I must say I've jumped over every obstacle and now I'm just a few feet from the finish line. But finishing is not what I'm worried about, I'm worried about what I'm gonna do after I reach the finish line. Maybe I'm just thinking too far ahead and I should focus on the present.

Idiots

I swear in this world we are surrounded by idiots! It would be different if they didn't understand but to just be that stupid should be illegal! There's this girl I know, she's not a friend or anything I just know her and she need some kind of psychiatric help because I have never met anybody that much out of their mind! I see the reason why she's single and the reason she's alone with a child. First of ladies, don't ever try to hard to get a guy because we can smell when your desperate and we will go after you because we know your a easy target and never try to force a guy into a relationship don't try to a guy or anything like that. Just use better judgement when making that decision. With that being said - look forward to my weekend of complete boredom I have a paper on genetic engineering that is due on monday at noon and I'm just tickling the surface.
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The kris code

So I live by an invisible code that was created years before me that tells u how to interact with women. One of the rules are to never associate with a married woman no matter how hot she is. A girl that I used to mess with got married recently but yet she's calling me trying to hang out and stuff and I had to tell her I can't associate with her because she's married its against the rules. Married women are off limits no matter what. Unless they have proof of divorce we stay away from them! A woman with kid(s) is another situation and there are rules for that too and that's when the scale meter comes in effect!
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its about that time!!!

Now for those of you who know it's been about 2 years since i've have a gf. I've been looking for the girl I could be with and have fun with but it's been a long hard search. it's like when I think I have found someone she slips through my fingers and or maybe the ones who want me i dont have any business being with lol. Me and my friend Carl have been on the search for a while. We have developed "The Scale" and "Confidence Meter" then we try to follow when meeting women. What those things are I will tell in a different post. But it's 2010 and I'm ready it's about that time now! I will say by the end of this year I will have a gf! that is a promise!! I've finally realized what I want and possibly who I want but of course Im not gonna say on here lol

travel plans

So i've decided the places I wanna travel t before this year is out. number one of course is Canada! Oh Canada! Yes vancouver british columbia canada!!! thats a place i've been wanting to visit for years now. so now the time has finally come for me to take that trip and im soo excited!! art and wine festival, good food, beautiful women just soo much to see :) but next afterwards i'll be going to atlanta georgia. i know its strange for me to actual wanna go there but its for a good reason that i wont say on here. i'll keep that to myself lol The third and final place is either Great Britain,Netherlands, or London. A very good buddy of mine has convinced me to come there and visit them and i agreed so hopefully i can get there by the end of this year of next year before summer. thats the reason ive been studying up my languages. just imagining all the beautiful women in these places puts a big smile on my face lol oh yea and i cant forget cape town south africa! thats a trip i cant wait to make also! ive met a couple of nice people who are studying out there that i communicate with and i really wanna go. i think studying abroad would be awesome! i just wanna travel and meet people and learn other cultures

update...

This is month 2 of my intense workout program and im really proud of myself and im starting to really see results. By September i'll be exactly where i wanna be. so far i've lost some inches and some pounds and im starting to get back into my high school weight and i'll be ready to take my trips around the country to visit those special people.

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I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place! I like having options but some time having too many can be a bad thing and that's my situation right now. I think I dont have enough options and maybe thats my issue. Of course I know what your thinking, your asking what do you mean by options? options in what? and those people who know me know of what I speak of.

R.I.P Papa

This year has been a crazy year for me. The one thing happened that I thought would never happen and thats my grandpa dying. I actually thought he would live forever because all the stuff he did really had no effect on him as far as his drinking. I just miss the drunk episodes and all the funny stories he would tell about his army days and his buddies he would beat up if they didnt repay him his money lol There are soo many memories of papa that I will remember forever and this year I've really dedicated it to him and everytime I do something good I think about how proud he would have been of me. Its tough not seeing him every morning in the kitchen knocking over stuff fixing his food as he scoots his old looking slippers across the floor lol He will always be remembered. It's gonna be weird about the holidays without him. The song on my blog is dedicated to him.

Kris Krucial update

How often have you woken up in the morning and then walked into the bathroom for the morning pee and then looked in the mirror and asked yourself " WTH am I doing with my life?" I swear for the last 2 years I was asking myself that while I was searching for my purpose. The past 2 years I've been working myself harder then ever and I'm finally getting somewhere. It just took a little bit of focus and alot of more free time for me to actually succeed. If I'm able to pull this off this summer and get this degree I swear I'm gonna reward myself with something I've been wanting for the past 2 years! I'm not gonna say you just have to wait and see lol