Recently had a conversation with my cousin jessica about signs in life. She just currently got her sign about the path she should go in life and yet I'm still waiting for my sign of a way out of something. Its been about a week n a half and I'm still looking for a sign for my situation and still haven't received it. I'm starting to lose hope but I was told to be patient and keep my head up and wait it out. I just need a lil something to show me that I'm going the right way or the wrong way.
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Why is it so hard to find the total package or even 3/4 of what your looking for? A question was asked of me, "what would I do that would make me happy that didn't involve money"? Truthfully after 3 days of thinking I couldn't think of an answer but now on the 4th day I found out my answer. The answer is me. I have to make myself happy. But off that subject now! Only one more month to go til christmas and also school will be out and I will know what school I will be attending next semester! I can't wait I'm excited I'm ready for a new change! I think I'm finally over my white girl fetish lol well I take that back no I'm not over it lol just saw one on tv and totally got distracted. I can be easily distracted by a lot of things. Women being the number 1. But not all the time! I'm really in the mood to dress up and go out somewhere dressy with a beautiful young lady but of course I don't have any options right now at this point so I have to go fishing lol.
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I feel like I haven't been doing what I really want to. I'm losing my awesomeness after I worked so hard to achieve level 3 of awesomeness. Its time for me to get back on track and leave the distractions behind. I need to go back to what made me who I am. There's always a story to how you became how you are and of course mines involves a girl who broke my year years ago and I promised myself I would never get back into that situation ever again. I know its not right to let your past dictate how you should live in the present depending on relationships but in my case because of my bad choices I have to. Its easier to "cut the fat" and take it as a loss and move on compared to suffering. I feel like its time to put myself back in the game. I'm ready to suit up and get going! No more letting a good thing pass me by I'm taking every opportunity that comes my way!!
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The last 3 years ive been getting trapped into these relationship webs. I never really realize what I'm doing until its too late. Of course I think that the girls know what they are doing when they trap me but I should know better then that. Never trust a big butt and a smile. Its hard these days to be able to tell the difference between a girl who is right for you for the long run and a girl that is just for right now. I think that's the situation all people face when it comes to a relationship. We always try to measure a relationship in length of time. Weeks months and years. If you do happen to be with that special person for the long run then they length won't matter. People tend to wear their emotions on their sleeves. My friends know when something is wrong and I'm not happy. Most friends won't say anything because they don't wanna be labeled a hater but there's nothing wrong with being a real friend and letting the person know why you don't like their significant other. I love my friends. They are very vocal about the choices I make and I do appreciate them for it. It shows really how much they care for me. Without the constant support from my friends I wouldn't be able to strive for the goals I set for myself. All my friends contribute to my life in different ways no matter how big or how small they all do something even if they don't think they have. Always keep your friends around and keep them close.
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So I'm currently dating a girl I have no business being with. Her potential meter is non existent. No drive to want to succeed to make herself a better person and is very content with the w*y her life is going. I on the other hand am not. I want success. I want to strive for better. I believe not wanting better is pathetic. Life is a mental game we play daily. And you need to keep up. You don't wanna fall behind because its hard trying to reach to the very top from the very bottom. Don't let anybody drag you down. You kick them off and continue pushing ahead. Don't be afraid to take a loss its apart of life. But always remember your life is what you make of it. Don't blame others or past relationships for the way you are now. You can always change. Its up to you to make the change. I stay devoted to everything I put my mind too either its relationships, school, or just life in general. Its not my job to push others to want to help themselves but I don't mind giving a little guidance along the way. I'll hold your hand but I won't carry you. You need to pick yourself off the ground, dust yourself off, and start walking.
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