Playing the game

Why is it that when you stop showing attention to someone they decide to put attention to you? That's probably the number three question of all time behind is megladon real and who shot tupac. The act of acquiring feeling for someone who doesn't reciprocate can be a dangerous road. You either keep it to yourself or go balls deep and make a fool of yourself. Either way it could hurt but who knows. Don't waste years waiting for one person to notice you. Don't change who you are for this person. Don't be afraid to slap yourself back into reality. Stay true to yourself. You won't know who you truly are if you're too busy trying to be someone else. Care about yourself but don't be a fat head about it.One thing you have to remember is caring is a type of feeling. A lot of people don't care but some do feel. That sounds like a bunch of crap but it's true. My life is a hot mess but yet I'm not in denial about it. I embrace it because I care enough to want to change it, sometimes. When you get to a point in your life where everyday is a new adventure, then you've hit your ultimate happy place in your life. Nothings wrong with a little extra emotion in your life. Just don't be all sugary with it. It may take days, months, or years but you'll eventually get there and you will feel awesome.

The passion for life

How do people go about life with no goals in mind? Some goals are realistic and some are unrealistic. Don't you try to explain to me that all goals are realistic and people can do whatever they put their mind to became that's wrong! I can say I want to be a doctor but if you saw my grades you would laugh in my face.  It's ok to have confidence in yourself but don't be cocky with it and don't lie to yourself. It's like an obese person saying their big boned, NO! You are wrong for thinking that! Bones are the same size in diameter but I can't say the same for the fat around it. This is probably why none of my relationships last. It's because I find a way to screw it up, which has been the last few times, or the girl has no goals in life and is a loser. I'm the king of picking terrible girls or as my aunt would say I'm captain save a hoe. You start to think about these things as you grow older. The older you get the more it bothers you. You want to get married and have a family but you have to think about the girl's family, for example are they ratchet or civilized? That's probably the thing that worries me the most and the reason why I refuse to meet family members of girlfriends until I know it serious. My life is a hot mess as some would say but yet my passion for life doesn't go down but goes up. I evolve to become greater. My passion bucket is what keeps me going for the ultimate prize. A prize that I don't know what it is yet.