Kris Krucial versus The World

2011-08-20T16:47:00.001-07:00

Wow its been a while since I've expressed myself on here. There has been a lot of things that have went on; women, school, and life. But school has been getting so much better for me.
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So sad

2011-03-15T05:54:00.001-07:00

Its so sad when u see a girl who has so much potential but she falls for one of those stupid hood guys and her life falls in the trash. I just don't understand why a girl who has a good head on her shoulders, cute, and has realistic goals in life to get trapped by a guy by having a kid and put her dreams on hold or maybe not even pursue her dreams because of this guy. I've seen this happened lately way to much and its depressing for me to see. I blame the parents. Its the parents responsibility to tell them what to look out for. If I have a daughter ima tell her straight up to stay away from those types. Don't even look a guys way if he doesn't meet up to the standard of life. No wanting to be a rapper is not a goal, I'm talking about a real goal like doctor, lawyer, nurse, teacher something that can contribute to society and you can live comfortable. Words mean nothing to me. I wanna see execution of what your saying. I'm really worried about the new generation of ladies coming up and the guys. All they see on tv is what they wanna be. Everybody wanna be a rapper. Why?!? Most rappers can barely speak proper english. And if and when they career over what they gonna do to bring in money? Everybody aint Diddy!
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Random thoughts

2011-03-14T21:58:00.001-07:00

Its been a while since I've blogged. Why are all these women having kids? Almost every one of my exgf's are having kids, like what's wrong with them? Whenever you get married or have kids at that point there's no more you and being awesome but u begin to die instead slowly every year working yourself to the bne until that day its all over.
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2010-12-04T14:38:00.001-08:00

I've been messing a lot these past few months. I haven't been following the rules that I myself created. I let my mind get distracted and clouded but not now. Its amazing how meeting a random person can open your eyes back to who you really was. I thank you girl who's name I do not know but yet I talk to everyday. Today starts the 3 phases of getting myself back to awesomess!
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2010-12-02T06:13:00.000-08:00

So after a long review I finally came up with the top 5 women you would not wanna date because of their jobs.
1- Lawyer
2- Politician
3- Police Officer/Government Agent
4- Stripper/Porn Star (this one was hard for me)
5- Psychiatrist
Now of course I have my reasons behind every one of these. I could never date a lawyer because I would never win an argument whether if I was right or wrong. I would never in my life date a politician because they lie! They all lie! They tell you what you want to hear just to get you on their side with no intention of actually fulfilling what they say. Now as for a police officer or government agent, you not gonna get away with anything dating one of those. They might even rough you up alittle in a argument. Would you really wanna live in fear lol I don't think so! Not gonna happen! Now everybody knows you can't date a stripper or a porn star because its hard to take them seriously. I understand every stripper and porn star isn't the same but still the job makes it difficult. Just knowing that every guy can go and see ur woman dance and get naked doesn't leave a good taste in my mouth. Even worse every guy being able to watch your gf have sex on camera to a guy that's not you has to be something that's horrible. How's that dinner conversation gonna be?!? Oh how was your day honey?! How many dicks did you have in my today?!? Like seriously cmon now!!! Last but not least I would never date a psychiatrist. I don't want nobody trying to get into my head and use my thoughts against me. Not cool at all because you know a woman will do that if she needs to get her way! Its just one of those things where I don't want her to bring her work home with her. I'm not a patient so don't try to treat me like one! So that is my top 5 list I will probably make another list of something else later on stay tuned for that!!!
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2010-11-22T20:33:00.001-08:00

Recently had a conversation with my cousin jessica about signs in life. She just currently got her sign about the path she should go in life and yet I'm still waiting for my sign of a way out of something. Its been about a week n a half and I'm still looking for a sign for my situation and still haven't received it. I'm starting to lose hope but I was told to be patient and keep my head up and wait it out. I just need a lil something to show me that I'm going the right way or the wrong way.
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2010-11-22T14:52:00.001-08:00

Why is it so hard to find the total package or even 3/4 of what your looking for? A question was asked of me, "what would I do that would make me happy that didn't involve money"? Truthfully after 3 days of thinking I couldn't think of an answer but now on the 4th day I found out my answer. The answer is me. I have to make myself happy. But off that subject now! Only one more month to go til christmas and also school will be out and I will know what school I will be attending next semester! I can't wait I'm excited I'm ready for a new change! I think I'm finally over my white girl fetish lol well I take that back no I'm not over it lol just saw one on tv and totally got distracted. I can be easily distracted by a lot of things. Women being the number 1. But not all the time! I'm really in the mood to dress up and go out somewhere dressy with a beautiful young lady but of course I don't have any options right now at this point so I have to go fishing lol.
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2010-11-22T14:23:00.001-08:00

I feel like I haven't been doing what I really want to. I'm losing my awesomeness after I worked so hard to achieve level 3 of awesomeness. Its time for me to get back on track and leave the distractions behind. I need to go back to what made me who I am. There's always a story to how you became how you are and of course mines involves a girl who broke my year years ago and I promised myself I would never get back into that situation ever again. I know its not right to let your past dictate how you should live in the present depending on relationships but in my case because of my bad choices I have to. Its easier to "cut the fat" and take it as a loss and move on compared to suffering. I feel like its time to put myself back in the game. I'm ready to suit up and get going! No more letting a good thing pass me by I'm taking every opportunity that comes my way!!
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2010-11-20T17:28:00.000-08:00

The last 3 years ive been getting trapped into these relationship webs. I never really realize what I'm doing until its too late. Of course I think that the girls know what they are doing when they trap me but I should know better then that. Never trust a big butt and a smile. Its hard these days to be able to tell the difference between a girl who is right for you for the long run and a girl that is just for right now. I think that's the situation all people face when it comes to a relationship. We always try to measure a relationship in length of time. Weeks months and years. If you do happen to be with that special person for the long run then they length won't matter. People tend to wear their emotions on their sleeves. My friends know when something is wrong and I'm not happy. Most friends won't say anything because they don't wanna be labeled a hater but there's nothing wrong with being a real friend and letting the person know why you don't like their significant other. I love my friends. They are very vocal about the choices I make and I do appreciate them for it. It shows really how much they care for me. Without the constant support from my friends I wouldn't be able to strive for the goals I set for myself. All my friends contribute to my life in different ways no matter how big or how small they all do something even if they don't think they have. Always keep your friends around and keep them close.
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2010-11-20T13:20:00.001-08:00

So I'm currently dating a girl I have no business being with. Her potential meter is non existent. No drive to want to succeed to make herself a better person and is very content with the w*y her life is going. I on the other hand am not. I want success. I want to strive for better. I believe not wanting better is pathetic. Life is a mental game we play daily. And you need to keep up. You don't wanna fall behind because its hard trying to reach to the very top from the very bottom. Don't let anybody drag you down. You kick them off and continue pushing ahead. Don't be afraid to take a loss its apart of life. But always remember your life is what you make of it. Don't blame others or past relationships for the way you are now. You can always change. Its up to you to make the change. I stay devoted to everything I put my mind too either its relationships, school, or just life in general. Its not my job to push others to want to help themselves but I don't mind giving a little guidance along the way. I'll hold your hand but I won't carry you. You need to pick yourself off the ground, dust yourself off, and start walking.
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Friends...How many of us have them

2010-09-25T18:51:00.000-07:00

You cant call everyone a friend. Most of the people you encounter arent your friends just people you know. Just because you hang out with them every once in a while they are not your friend, they are your associate. A friend is something more. Someone you can turn to in time of trouble. Someone who will hook you up with a fellow friend of theirs. Im happy to say that I have plenty of people who I can actually call my friends. I have some best buddies and best friends but a ton of associates.

A lazy lover

2010-09-24T21:23:00.000-07:00

So I've finally encountered a lazy lover. I never knew that they existed I've only heard stories. You'll never know right away when you've encountered a lazy lover until your at that point of almost no return.
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Cutting the fat pt 1

2010-09-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

So its close to the end of the year and I've decided to cut the fat with numerous individuals. Actually just females. I do it at the end of every year but this year its actually kinda hard because there's girls I haven't conquer sort a speak. A friend of mine once told me that its easier to get rid of someone that you care about rather then someone you haven't conquered. So there's this one girl who I really want to keep around but she's lazy and it makes me think she's gonna be a lazy lover and I can't have that. I started to care too much and I stopped being who I was. But now I'm back to kris! Kris krucial. The guy who plans on being legendary in many peoples eyes. A guy who is not scared to talk to any hot woman on the street, in a bar, restaurant, or party. I am who I am. I was created and I'm carrying on the legacy. I was created by women in failed relationships I had. The past women have ruined it for the future women. I doubt there's a woman out there who can tame me. If there is I would so like to meet her! she's most likely hott!!! Lol. Ill admit I'm a sucker for a big butt and big boobies lol
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Update.....

2010-08-18T14:28:00.001-07:00

So its been a while since I've blogged and things have really been looking better. I have my appointment with the air force this past monday and it went very well. I believe doing this will help me along with my future. I have no gf at this time so its an easier decision to make. I'm still currently waiting to hear from Holy Names University they said they would be in contact with me by wednesday afternoon. I'm not really worried I know I will get in I just want confirmation.
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Today was a good day!

2010-08-12T21:02:00.000-07:00

Today was an interesting day for me but I'm not complaining. First I got my haircut (It was very much needed) then went to sf with my potna to go see one of his friends. He didn't mention that his friend was a stripper so we was at the strip club for about 2 hrs. I must say it was my first experience there and I didn't know how to act. I felt like a fat kid in a candy shop it was buns everywhere. So being the strip club virgin my potna said he would treat me to my first stripper lap dance so I pretty much chilled with the same girl the whole time until she went on stage. But I must say strippers aren't bad people. They are single moms just trying to make money to support themselves and their children, they are also students trying to pay they way through school. You can't look down on strippers for what they do they trying to make money too and they nice and like to talk (mostly about what they wanna do in life) but its real cool. Lucious how to be the hottest one in there and the one I chilled with. She called me her new best friend lol. After that experience I went to visit my friend in fillmore and chilled with her for a while. Haven't seen her in like a year so it was good to see her and talk with her outside of the phone and on xbox live. So after all of that I came home exhausted lol today was one of the funnest days ever for me lol
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The best day of my life!!

2010-08-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

Today was the best day of my life! The first thing that led up to today was yesterday when I petitioned to graduate to receive my first of many degrees. I will be receiving 2. One in liberal arts and another in Humanities. Im really proud of myself for completing the first step in my 3 step program. The second thing that happened was today when I was woken up by a phone call from Xbox saying that they fixed my xbox and they shipped it off today which was great. That was the best phone call I've had in a long time. The third thing was that my grades officially posted on the school website so that meant I was officially a graduate! It feels good knowing that I completed something that I finished. Seeing those 2 degrees on my wall will continue to motivate me to succeed for more. And the last most important thing was that I got accepted verbally by 2 universities for the Fall semester now I just gotta wait on the transcript and everything to go through so it can be official. Today was truly the best day of my life. It's funny because I didnt tell anybody about this but yet im blogging about it lol Anyway this weekend im read to kick it and celebrate!! I'll catch ya later!

Domino Effect...Again

2010-08-05T22:13:00.001-07:00

So now its that time of year again and the domino effect is starting to take place. Its been a few months and hopefully it will end pretty soon. I knew this time was coming because 2010 started off way to good and now the domino effect is currently taking place but within the next month it will be over and I will be back on top of my game like always. I had to cut the fat with a few young ladies. It was for the best and I broke a rule and paid for it but it will next happen again. Im going to stick to the rule book that I wrote and follow them precisely from now on.

long distance vs lazy

2010-08-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

Now this subject is something that has been bothering me for a minute now. Havent you noticed that sometimes the people you have more in common with are far away compared to another person who is closer to you? Through my years I have come into contact with alot of women, beautiful women i must say, who would be perfect for me but of course the distance becomes a issue and im not for the long distance thing, it just doesnt work out. Now if there is a person who likes you or is into you and they are close enough to see but it seems like its a long distance thing then thats just lazy. Now theres a difference between long distance and lazy and its quite obvious. For example I know a girl, a friend in her eyes ( but thats another story), who at one point lived literally 5 minutes away from me and always talked about hanging out and stuff like that but of course she was full of hot air but now she recently moved out to tracy and all of a sudden wants to make an attempt to hang out and stuff and im like no I dont want too you had a chance to when you were down the street. Shes the definition of a lazy friend. Not even being up to the standard of a friend just a somebody. Now with her being lazy in the beginning I eventually gave up and moved on to someone else to hang out with who wasnt lazy. She shouldnt be complaining to me about why I dont hit her up anymore, why I havent asked about hanging out! Well what do you think?!?!?! You cant expect for someone to sit around and put up with your laziness eventually they will move on and when you finally realize what happened its too late because to the other person you no longer exist.

Hmmmm...

2010-08-04T10:22:00.000-07:00

My best friend told me last night that its time for me to be with a solid woman and be in a relationship that has meaning. After sleeping on it she was right. It is time for me to stop dating girls for the moment and think about being with someone for the long term future. its gonna be hard to find that special specific girl that I feel comfortable with but I think I maybe already found her I'm just not looking deep enough. Its much more complicated to actually be in a relationship then to just date. I just don't want a boring woman. I want a woman that I have so much things in common with that I can bring them around my friends and it won't be weird. I just don't want a weird gf period either because I don't have a lot of patience and that's mostly why I'm single now. Most of all I want a girl that wants to succeed and will help motivate me and support me in my ideas. I've dated too many girls in the past who were just there to be there but really had no purpose, no drive to wanna do anything and it just held me back. I wanna succeed and be fruitful in life and I want a woman with the same drive to wanna be successful. I made a promise to myself that I would be in a steady relationship by the end of this year and I'm determined to meet that goal.
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I did it!!!!!

2010-08-03T18:38:00.000-07:00

Well I finally did it! I finally finished part 1 of my goal. Hopefully part 2 will be just as easy or easier. These past 2 years have been stressful and crazy. Juggling relationships, friends, and schoolwork is tough but can be done and I did it. By september I plan on having a gf, in a good college/university, and something else I can't really think of right now. I have a plan and so far I'm executing it. Now its time to execute part 2 of my plan!
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On My Way.....

2010-07-23T22:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so I've officially hit in wall. It's the end of the semester and I've truly tried my best this summer session and now I've reached the end. I have a quiz and final test in Geogrpahy this coming week and also my final paper in English that I've been writing for a while now on Genetic Engineering. I know what your thinking and no I did not choose that subject it was given to me. This will probably be the best paper I've ever written in my life. It's like almost saying my life depends on this paper. Have you ever put your heart and soul into something knowing that it has to be the best ever but yet you still fall short? I swear that has to be the story of my life lol But this year I believe that I strived and got through alot of stuff that I would usually run away from.I'm proud of myself. It's been a rough 2 years for me trying to recover and get myself back on track but I must say I've jumped over every obstacle and now I'm just a few feet from the finish line. But finishing is not what I'm worried about, I'm worried about what I'm gonna do after I reach the finish line. Maybe I'm just thinking too far ahead and I should focus on the present.

Idiots

2010-07-23T18:34:00.001-07:00

I swear in this world we are surrounded by idiots! It would be different if they didn't understand but to just be that stupid should be illegal! There's this girl I know, she's not a friend or anything I just know her and she need some kind of psychiatric help because I have never met anybody that much out of their mind! I see the reason why she's single and the reason she's alone with a child. First of ladies, don't ever try to hard to get a guy because we can smell when your desperate and we will go after you because we know your a easy target and never try to force a guy into a relationship don't try to a guy or anything like that. Just use better judgement when making that decision. With that being said - look forward to my weekend of complete boredom I have a paper on genetic engineering that is due on monday at noon and I'm just tickling the surface.
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The kris code

2010-07-21T21:43:00.000-07:00

So I live by an invisible code that was created years before me that tells u how to interact with women. One of the rules are to never associate with a married woman no matter how hot she is. A girl that I used to mess with got married recently but yet she's calling me trying to hang out and stuff and I had to tell her I can't associate with her because she's married its against the rules. Married women are off limits no matter what. Unless they have proof of divorce we stay away from them! A woman with kid(s) is another situation and there are rules for that too and that's when the scale meter comes in effect!
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its about that time!!!

2010-07-21T14:07:00.000-07:00

Now for those of you who know it's been about 2 years since i've have a gf. I've been looking for the girl I could be with and have fun with but it's been a long hard search. it's like when I think I have found someone she slips through my fingers and or maybe the ones who want me i dont have any business being with lol. Me and my friend Carl have been on the search for a while. We have developed "The Scale" and "Confidence Meter" then we try to follow when meeting women. What those things are I will tell in a different post. But it's 2010 and I'm ready it's about that time now! I will say by the end of this year I will have a gf! that is a promise!! I've finally realized what I want and possibly who I want but of course Im not gonna say on here lol

travel plans

2010-07-21T13:02:00.001-07:00

So i've decided the places I wanna travel t before this year is out. number one of course is Canada! Oh Canada! Yes vancouver british columbia canada!!! thats a place i've been wanting to visit for years now. so now the time has finally come for me to take that trip and im soo excited!! art and wine festival, good food, beautiful women just soo much to see :) but next afterwards i'll be going to atlanta georgia. i know its strange for me to actual wanna go there but its for a good reason that i wont say on here. i'll keep that to myself lol The third and final place is either Great Britain,Netherlands, or London. A very good buddy of mine has convinced me to come there and visit them and i agreed so hopefully i can get there by the end of this year of next year before summer. thats the reason ive been studying up my languages. just imagining all the beautiful women in these places puts a big smile on my face lol oh yea and i cant forget cape town south africa! thats a trip i cant wait to make also! ive met a couple of nice people who are studying out there that i communicate with and i really wanna go. i think studying abroad would be awesome! i just wanna travel and meet people and learn other cultures

update...

2010-07-21T12:58:00.001-07:00

This is month 2 of my intense workout program and im really proud of myself and im starting to really see results. By September i'll be exactly where i wanna be. so far i've lost some inches and some pounds and im starting to get back into my high school weight and i'll be ready to take my trips around the country to visit those special people.

........

2010-07-21T12:44:00.001-07:00

I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place! I like having options but some time having too many can be a bad thing and that's my situation right now. I think I dont have enough options and maybe thats my issue. Of course I know what your thinking, your asking what do you mean by options? options in what? and those people who know me know of what I speak of.

R.I.P Papa

2010-07-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

This year has been a crazy year for me. The one thing happened that I thought would never happen and thats my grandpa dying. I actually thought he would live forever because all the stuff he did really had no effect on him as far as his drinking. I just miss the drunk episodes and all the funny stories he would tell about his army days and his buddies he would beat up if they didnt repay him his money lol There are soo many memories of papa that I will remember forever and this year I've really dedicated it to him and everytime I do something good I think about how proud he would have been of me. Its tough not seeing him every morning in the kitchen knocking over stuff fixing his food as he scoots his old looking slippers across the floor lol He will always be remembered. It's gonna be weird about the holidays without him. The song on my blog is dedicated to him.

Kris Krucial update

2010-07-09T16:03:00.000-07:00

How often have you woken up in the morning and then walked into the bathroom for the morning pee and then looked in the mirror and asked yourself " WTH am I doing with my life?" I swear for the last 2 years I was asking myself that while I was searching for my purpose. The past 2 years I've been working myself harder then ever and I'm finally getting somewhere. It just took a little bit of focus and alot of more free time for me to actually succeed. If I'm able to pull this off this summer and get this degree I swear I'm gonna reward myself with something I've been wanting for the past 2 years! I'm not gonna say you just have to wait and see lol

confused

2009-09-01T20:03:00.000-07:00

Things are getting really confusing right now. Like the domino effect is starting kinda early this year and i dont understand why. There has to be a reason. But yet I dont know why. 2007 ended badly for me and 2008 started off horrible until about fall and then everything started to go my way and was good. 2009 started off great and was good until a few months ago when the domino effect started so if your doing the math this year will end badly for me. i wasnt prepared for it because it came early this year. so now im stuck and i dont know what to do.

My potential

2009-08-11T19:44:00.001-07:00

So after a long day of handling school business, I sat down and thought to myself for a while. I've decided that I really wasnt living up to my full potential. I've been settling for less in the past and some time this present. I dont do it on purpose it just happens. I remember a friend of mine told me that right now in my life I dont need a real bad, sexy girlfriend. To just get a average girl because those are the ones who mind is right and knows you for you. And if you and her break up after you have your career together you have the chance to get that super bad chick because you are established. I just really need to get myself together because my potential meter is really high and i need to meet up with it. Right now im on the low part i need to get mid way then to the highest point.

My self-made Auto-Biography

2009-08-11T19:41:00.000-07:00

The quote “You live what you learn” is something that I have lived by for as long as I can remember. I know the way my family raised me impacted my worldview. I was raised by a single mother and into a Christian family. I also went to a Christian private school from grades 1-12, so I’ve been surrounded by religious influence my whole life. Me, myself I’m not as religious as maybe some of the members of my family are, but when it comes to certain thoughts and opinions about God I can be bias. I do believe in God. I do not believe in evolution. I just can’t see myself developing from a monkey or I would have been born with fur. I believe my mother and grandmother influence my outlook on life. My grandmother has to be one of the most religious people I’ve ever known. She was a big influence on how I look at the world today. At first I took this class because I thought I needed it for a school I was transferring to, but after finding out that I didn’t need this class anymore I was going to drop it but by that time I was interested and it was kind of too late to drop also. I learned a lot about the past by reading the textbooks and lectures. Learning about old philosophers and what they believed in intrigued me. I came into this class knowing I had to have my eyes and mind open because I knew this would be different from what I’ve learned throughout my years in Christian school. I believe religion has impacted most of my decisions I have made in my life. Especially when it came to picking friends and girlfriends. I can’t really say much about my choice of girlfriends because in the past I have dated a lot of idiots. But I blame myself for that because I didn’t stick to the morals and standards that my family had instilled into me growing up when choosing a woman. But as far as friends are concerned, I know I have some of the best friends ever. All my friends I have known for about 10 to 11 years. I do have one friend who I’ve known for about 20 years. I haven’t made any new friends since my days in the Navy. My friends and I act similar in thinking. That’s why we get along and have been for so long. We all have goals that we are trying to meet and we are all around the same age. My family and friends are very important to me. I love my family more then anything. My family has always been there even when I didn’t want them around. The same can be said about my friends. No matter what happens my friends are always there threw good and bad. I’ve come into contact with a lot of people threw the years but I do not call them friends. To me friends are people who know you inside and out, care about you, and will always be there and give you good advice when you need it. It sort of makes you think about the type of people you have around you if you don’t have friends who have those qualities. When it comes to more personal things, like for instance money, I believe the way I was raised really hasn’t had an effect on how I spend my money. My mom used to always tell me even to this day to only buy things that you need compared to things that you want. But of course I don’t listen to that. I tend to buy whatever I want no matter of price. If I can afford it then I will buy it. Sometimes I can even be selfish with my money and really think about myself when buying things. And that was not how I was raised but sometimes money can take over a person’s life. I must spend at least 200-300 dollars every two or three weeks. I have about 40-50 movies, that I still haven’t watched and I’ve had forever, video games that are at the most 60 dollars apiece, not including 5 game systems. Now in the rest of my house there are ordinary things, not a flat screen television, not an expensive apple computer like in my room. Some people might say that I give money away or I’m throwing money away with the things that I buy but I buy things to keep me from being bored. I do what makes me happy. I have given money to the poor on the street before. I’m not that much of a selfish person just really materialistic. Really I cannot say why I think and do the things I do. I certainly was not raised this way but I guess it just happened because of the world we live in and what we see on television. Well also I think because I was an only child and my mom used to get me everything I wanted so I guess that could contribute to this so called problem also. I have a real problem with saving money and I know I really need to start saving because school is becoming expensive. I am currently in school taking the general courses to transfer to a major university because I want to be a doctor. Well I want to really be a plastic surgeon that’s really my dream. I know I have a long way to go but I’m determined to make it all the way there. At first I just wanted to be an internal medicine doctor but after talking to a friend of mine she told me she could see me more of a plastic surgeon and of course I fed into it and after thinking about it for a while I decided I really could see myself doing that also. My family especially my mom said that it wouldn’t be good because of the amount of school that would be needed and I would be almost 40 years old when I was done but I don’t care I ‘m still going to go for it. I remember reading Debate 6 in You Decide and it talked about asking the question Who am I? Before I started writing this I actually sat down and thought about whom I actually was, especially since this is going to be my own autobiography. As soon as I started writing I started to notice things about myself that I really never paid attention to good and bad. It almost seemed like I was caught up in my whole world and not my surroundings and what ever was not apart of my world or in my bubble I didn’t care about. And truthfully I’ve ruined a lot of relationships that way because of my selfishness. But of course I’m still in denial about that. That text just really stuck out to me in more ways then one. Maybe even a life change coming because of that text. Its really too soon to say but I know it will be a working progress and I’m willing to take the time. Hopefully before it’s too late. Now do I think I can make the world a better place by being a plastic surgeon? Maybe, maybe not but I know I will be able to help people who really need my help and not just people who have issues of their breast size and or shape of their back side. Now I spend my free time probably I think the same way that any guy does. Like I said previously I have some friends whom I’ve known between 10-20 years so we have our little adventures. We do the basic things like hang out, go to movies, go bowling, and talk about girls and stupid people. The one thing that I do with my friends that most people don’t is that I sometimes video record our adventures together. It’s something we’ve done since high school and we have made videos and have put them on you tube for the whole world to see and people have really come to enjoy our antics. Its all for entertainment purposes of course, to entertain each other and others. But when I’m not with my friends I like to relax at home watch some television, maybe watch some of these movies I have, listen to music, and research topics online to talk about on my online radio show. I will admit I do have my boring days where the whole day just sucks and I just want it to be over so I can start off the next day better. I sleep only 5 maybe 6 hours a day. I don’t need much sleep to function I just need to keep busy. I remember reading in chapter 6 of Coffee and Philosophy it talked about fatalism which is saying that you do have a destiny. I do believe I have a destiny and it is to be a plastic surgeon. It actually took me a long time to find my destiny. I started off in high school not knowing what I wanted to do but go to college and see beautiful women everywhere have party then decide later on my future. After graduating, I decided to go to an art college for 2 years and after being there it wasn’t for me, so next was Merritt College. I spent some time there before deciding to join the United States Navy. And after that short but good experience I returned back to Merritt College this past year. Things did start off slow for me but as I got back into the mode of school I started to get myself together and that’s when I decided I wanted to be a doctor. And that’s where I am right now this second. Before joining the military I really didn’t vote at all. It was just something that if I didn’t understand what I was voting for I didn’t do it. But this past election I really took interest because of it being an African American candidate running to be president of the United States. That was something I thought would never happen in my lifetime at least. I really started paying attention to what the news said and what the candidates were talking about. Election day was the first time I have ever voted in my life. It was a wonderful experience. Just seeing obstacles like that being taking down really makes you think about your life and what you should be standing for. One a serious note, writing this autobiography has really opened my eyes to things in my life as far as my future that I should really pay attention to. I need to be more focused on what I’m doing and not always looking for the easy way out of everything. That is certainly something my mom and grandmother did not teach me growing up. I think I’ve let materials and television impact my worldview a little bit too much. And as I got older it had gotten worse. I’m sure everybody will agree that things just seemed so much easier when you were younger. I think all the religion classes I took during my years in grade school and high school has stuck with me to a certain aspect. A whole lot of stuff of course I have forgotten threw the years because once the classes were over I figured I really didn’t feel the need to go back and read those books again but now that I’m older I think there is nothing wrong with going back and maybe going over some things in your life and maybe try to go back make things right or if you did somebody wrong you can go back and make things right between you and that person. You will feel better and probably make that person feel better in the end also. I thought writing an autobiography about myself would be easy but it really isn’t. As you write and you start going over your life you really start to think about all the stuff you’ve been through and things you regret and things you could have done differently. Truthfully I really don’t know why I act or do the things I do. Well maybe for excitement or because of boredom? That’s something I probably wont ever figure or maybe I really don’t want to know. There are some things in life that go without question and maybe you should search for the answer because you wont like what you find. I do realize as I get older things become more difficult. Just like for example in Debate 6 in You Decide, it said that your body is constantly becoming remade. So as I got older I started to change certain things about myself and my mode of thinking sometimes not for the good but I usually made it work the way I wanted it to. I wasn’t much of a reader of books growing up; well actually I hated to read it was one of those things that upset me. It wasn’t that I had a hard time reading I just didn’t want to take the time to read a whole lot of pages unless it was something that I choose and wanted to read. But as I gotten older and got into college I knew that reading was a necessity and I had to change my ways. At first I avoided classes that had to do with a lot of reading but when I had no choice and I had to take English and Philosophy I quickly stepped up. I look at everyday like a battle. You win some, you lose some, but its how you handle yourself day by day that matters. I’ll admit I don’t always do the best I do get lazy at times but who doesn’t? That can be your downfall in the end. What you have to do, something that I learned the hard way is stand up tall and always pushes forward no matter what! Never go backwards! Like for example when I am no longer with a girlfriend and then some time later she talks about maybe getting back together I don’t do it. The term I use is recycling. I don’t recycle I only move forward I never go backwards. I know that might be a bad example but if you know me then you will understand. Sticking to your morals and what you believe in is important to how you live your life. Whether you believe in God or not doing what is right is always good and good things will happen to you. Just remember always hold your head up high people can notice a confident person. You are responsible for your own life and what goes into it and life is to short to dwell on the past so make the best of the present and focus on your future.

Coming out of retirement!!

2009-08-01T16:30:00.000-07:00

So everyone I have decided to come out of retirement and make ONE more film. Now I havent done a film in about 4 or 5 years, yes its been a while. But with the ideas I have for this film this will be one of the best i've ever done in my lifetime. A film of this magnitude is destined for greatness in my eyes. The pre-production is under way now. We are writing and get down all the ideas about what we are going to do for this film, where you going to film this at, and the amount of money this may cost us. I will be blogging updates daily about the film. When i know something, you will know something! The goal is to have the film done by christmas but we know how that might go but we plan on having a preview of the film done and on youtube by september hopefully sooner. I'm going back to my roots for this film. I will be writing, directing, and co-producing this film. So you already know what to be in store for with this one lol!!

Late Night Update

2009-07-22T01:18:00.000-07:00

Ok everybody things have been kind of hectic for me the last month but I finally got it together. School started off kind of slow as I do every semester but by the middle and going down the home stretch I always come threw victorious in the end. So I've decided to attend St Marys College in Moraga. It is close to home, only 20 mins away, and theres everything I need at that school. Now the only question is how am I gonna get Delana to come there?!?!?!? They have my major but not necessarily hers. Delana isnt my GF just in case your wondering but thats my buddy and we're gonna go to school together. We've been planning it for like 2 years. So I'm pretty much in the door I just gotta get her in there with me. Another thing thats been on my mind is everytime i talk to an EXGF they always ask who I'm talking to now or hows my sex life and things of that nature. I find it ridiculous for them to be in my business like that especially since they were the ones that broke up with me. They just couldnt handle my some to become greatness of being Kris Krucial HAHA!!! The girl that I'm into im not gonna say her name on here Im gonna keep that private because I dont know if she wants her name out there like that. People might hate on her or something lol. But with that being said everything is going very well. School is great and I will be writing my own personal autobiography about myself soon and can you believe its a project for class!! Ive also decided to change up my style alittle bit. I plan on getting me more casual clothes along with dress up clothes. especially more button up shirts of course. I'm gonna try to step away from Kris Krucial and become Kris Vaughn the Man. But I know with doing that come great responsibility and I welcome that. It's about that time for me to settle down, no more multiple women in my life because I need that certain someone to be at my side and right now I'm still trying to figure out if the girl I'm into is that one. But I'm keeping my options open. Let's just see how this goes.

My thoughts

2009-06-28T23:10:00.000-07:00

At the beginning of the night i was happy and excited but it only takes one thing to screw that up. So i decided to watch the BET awards for the first time in about 4 years. The only reason i watched it was because it was supposed to be a tribute to Michael Jackson but of course it wasnt. Well there was a tribute but a very small tribute. Yea wasnt very impressed by it but it was good to see Janet there. She was looking good as always! But anyway i'm in a krucial mood tonight. Somebody kinda hit me with something unexpected so my mood totally changed from happy to krucial in a quick second! You know I dont have patience for alot of things. Ive been up late the past few nights thinking about stuff and yet I still havent come to the conclusion on what to do. Is being generous a bad thing? Let me know so I can stop with the generousity to others. Maybe i'm turning into the thing that i've been calling people?!?! An idiot!!! Not paying attention to what needs to be done and sticking to my morals and what I been in doing is not the Kris Krucial way. I need to go back to the way things were where I had total control and I had people on my schedule and did whatever i wanted without caring. Thats when I was truely happy and right now i'm not truely happy with the way things are but yet its gettin to the point where I am getting better. I tend to recognize that as you get older things tend to unravel in a way thats hard for you to explain but yet it seems like you hit a wall. I've hit that wall. I hit it pretty hard. I'm still trying to recover but I always need to stop getting so angry and upset over certain things. My attitude of being irate and easily irritated is really starting to take a toll on me. I think my worlds are starting to cross each other.

Idiots....

2009-06-26T17:12:00.000-07:00

Ok now you know that I feel that most of my Ex-Girlfriends are idiots right, well this girl, shes a woman because shes older then me, shes an idiot forreal. I dont understand how someone that old can act so young. Getting upset over something that doesnt make any sense or that you shouldnt even care about is stupid. I say get a life. You shouldnt be sitting at home all day long with nothing no job or anything. Go to school, get a job , do something. And another thing thats on my mind that i think is funny, in defense for a friend of mine i dont understand why these women call some men losers when the men have jobs or careers with their own stuff and these women who are saying it have no job, 1,2, or 3 kids, and no car! that just gets on my nerves because who are you to talk when you cant even do anything ok wow you have no steady income and we know what your living off of and your proud of that but yet your calling men losers lol! i just dont get it lol its jsut something to think about i guess.

update yo!!

2009-06-23T00:25:00.000-07:00

well its been a while since i have last wrote on here so you know theres lots to update. first of all im sticking to what i believe and that is every exgf i have had is an idiot lol simple. i think my taste in women is bad but im getting better. ive beens ticking to my morals lately and i have met a real nice girl and so far everything is going great!! summer school has now started so i went today me and erica but of ourse the class was full and we couldnt get into the class so that pretty much sucks and we both needed the class. but i still have philosophy so im not really trippin. i do plan on doing a radio show soon i need to be able to express myself lol. I have really grown into a fan of nip/tuck the tv series its awesome. if you havent seen it before you need to check it out seriously!!

target fart

2009-06-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

Ok so me and my mom decided to go to target after i picked her up from work the other day and it was kinda crowded it was late afternoon about 430 or 5pm. so we are walking down the aisle and a bunch of women walked by then we started to smell something horrible lol. One of those women had popped off a fart and it smelled horrible. Me and my mom were currently talking and had our mouths open and walked into that fart cloud and it was horrible lol. People should be embarrassed lol how can you just walk around in a crowded store passing gas like that especially if it smelled like that lol

here it goes again

2009-05-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

Ok remember from the previous post I talked about the moco hoe well now shes back and trying to cause more trouble lol. Now she says she dont wanna talk to me anymore but we havent talked in I dont know how long lol. She deleted her moco pages for reasons i do not know of but do I care no I dont!! She sent me a flurry of texts while I was sleep talking bout , oh i se you moved on to somebody esle and all this garbage lol its totally ridiculous how this girl thinks I dont know if she knows but shes crazy she needs help seriously. I guess i was one of her guys that got away lol and she didnt like that lol. She wanted to end all contact and yet again i told her that we havent talked in forever so contact had already been cut lol so after like hours of not receiving a text she texts me again saying to delete her from my myspace cuz she cant do it from her phone so i laughed and said ok lol. Then check this out once i did it like a few hrs later she texted me again saying wow i see u really did delete me lol so im like girl u said to wat is your problem now we are done for good!! then again another text comes throw saying she dont even know why she wasting her time textin me rite now lol. I swear people please becareful who you meet because for some reason I seem to meet the stupid,dumb lying ones lol take it from me they may seem innnocent but they be far from it lol. Make sure you going into a family history or something lol because these girls are horrible lol

Mother's Days

2009-05-10T00:17:00.000-07:00

Mother's Day is special to me this year because its the first time I get to spend it with my mom for the first time in like 7 or 8 years so im like really happy about that I got her an aweosme card and everything i cant wait til she wakes up tomorrow. Everybody we should be thankful for mothers without them where would we be?? Nowhere because we wouldnt even be here

someone new

2009-05-10T00:07:00.000-07:00

Ok so recently i met someone new shes pretty cool fun to talk to especially if you get her on a subject she likes alot and i see potential in her to be great. Like at first we started off kinda slow talking but the last few days have really been good. I think its because we saw each other for a min last week so at that point we started talking more. But she has great potential and I liked how she was somebody who I was looking for and I went after her im proud of myself!! Hopefully on monday when i see her again things will have kept progressing :)

the many sites im on lol

2009-05-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

Ok for those of you who are wondering yes im on alot of sites but there are a select few where im on all the time and they are listed below be sure to send me a msg or request i'll be sure to add you!

MYSPACE-www.myspace.com/daoaklandboi3684

TWITTER-www.twitter.com/kriskrucial

BLOG TALK RADIO-www.blogtalkradio.com/kris-krucial (and this is where you can find the kris krucial lounge saturday nites 7pm-9pm PST)

MY WEBSITE-http://starinthamaking.webs.com

MY BRAND NEWLY DESIGNED SOCIAL NETWORK FOR EVERYONE-http://krucial.ning.com ( its gonna run myspace out the water baby!!)

My Upcoming Book

2009-05-09T12:59:00.001-07:00

So after all this writing and thinking I have decided to write a book based on my experiences and some other things. This idea came about last nite as i was blogging on here and talking to my best buddy Sheena, she brought it to my attention that since i write soo much on here i should turn it into a book and of course i slept on it and thought about it as i got up this morning and then it hit me, I really should do it! So im going to write a book and entitle it, "The Thoughts of a Wonderer". I think it will be a great book once i start writing it and getting all the material im going to put into it.

the moco hoe

2009-05-08T23:39:00.000-07:00

Ok so i was talking to this girl named Samesha i had met her on mocospace. she seemed coo in the beginning but man was I wrong!!! lol first of all she was 26 which wasnt bad but she had 2 kids by 2 different guys, the worst part about that was that she lived with her baby daddy lol i didnt kno about that til later when her baby daddy tried to get at me but he hella weak he old forreal she 26 and he like almost 40 with braids receding hairline and all he need to give it up he aint in his 20's anymore lol. But anyway back on subject,so yea she used to tell me stories about what he did to her and things like that and I would take her side because i didnt believe someone like her could do any wrong but man was I wrong LMAO. I had to laugh even harder on that one, but yea when her baby daddy's mom called her the devil i took her side lol (which I shouldnt had) and when he put hands on her i took her side (again which i shouldnt had) because she made it seem like it was for no reason. But man once again I was wrong, this girl was a moco hoe lol she was talking to hella dudes getting in trouble with other girls losing friends and then was wondering why, Im like look at you, you got ur butt showing chest hanging out and then you got like 3 pages on this site you look like a moco hoe and then she was lying about it!! If you get caught in a lie dont continue to lie because all you gonna do is dig yourself into a bigger hole just come out and tell the truth but of course she didnt do it lol. so after i told her i was done with her and her crap she called me crying and then wanted to talk to me but everything she said i didnt believe she was full of crap i dont care. there was soo much i didnt find out about her til later it was crazy lol it felt great to finally let her go! lol

what is on my mind....at 1130pm lol

2009-05-08T23:27:00.000-07:00

Ok there is one thing that kind of really pisses me off that women that i happen to like or talk to tend to do. They tend to cat off big time to the point of i dont even wanna be bothered with them anymore. I know what your thinking ,your thinking i always having women issues and yes you are soo right LOL!! I dont know what it is I think i shouldnt settle for less thats a first lol!! Like for example there was this girl who was pretty cool, i liked her she would text me all the time wanting to hang out and i was like ok lets do it rite, so when it was time to kick it she was no where to be found i was calling and she wasnt answering. So at that point i decided to get comfortable at home and then like an hour later now she wanna call and im like WHAT THE HELL!?!?! lol of course she gives a pityful reason why but still lol.so after her doing that around like 3-4 times i gave up and was like watever i aint even gonna talk to her anymore cuz she said shes been busy at work and some other stuff rite. so then i decide to get on facebook and see wuz up with the homies and i see her on there talking bout she cant wait to hang out with sum guy but at that point i had already put her on my DEMOTION list so it didnt phase me. but its been like 2 months and still no contact with her and i dont plan on it. she was a cat hella weak!!! she better not even think about even sending me a txt msg or ima go bad on her forreal LOL but other then that things have been good OH WAIT OH YEA THERES ANOTHER GIRL THAT TRIED TO GET ME!!! ima save that for the next entry though lol hahaha

just a thought

2009-03-24T19:33:00.000-07:00

I ate a fortune cookie yesterday and it said to me, "Soon someone new coming into your life will become a very good friend." Now i thought that was very interesting. A new friend?? i havent really met anybody new lately thats why this fortune seems soo strange.

that time of year again...

2009-02-21T14:32:00.000-08:00

Well its that time of year again and no im not talking about valentines day or christmas, im talking about my birthday! Yes i know im getting old im going to be 25 years old, almost to 30 but hey im doing it moving though. Im looking forward towards my goals and im getting closer each day I havent took a step backwards yet and im realy shocked because i thought i would have by now truthfully. I think im starting to feel the age creeping up on me. The years are going by really fast, I could have sworn i was 22 yesterday. So of course Im going to celebrate my birthday, the beginning of my end lol, with my close friends i have known threw the years especially since this will be my last birthday in california, then the countdown to Nevada will begin.

Gets on my nerves!

2009-02-21T14:21:00.000-08:00

Dont you hate it when people say that they need beauty sleep?? Dont you just wanna say " Your still gonna wake up ugly"!! You dont wanna hurt anybody's feelings or lower any self-esteem. You really dont wanna be responsible for anybody killing themselves over your comment. I hate it when people ask me if i think they are cute especially when they are not!!! It just puts you in a awkward sitaution! You dont wanna say yes and lie but you dont wanna say no and crush their spirit. It's harder to answer the question and easy to change the subject quickly. It never fails, men or women, your gonna come across someone who will ask you that question and take my advice either change the subject or get mad at them for even asking a ridiculous question so you can get away free without either lying or telling the truth :)

friendship

2009-02-17T05:38:00.000-08:00

Friendship is a pretty full-time occupation if you really are friendly with somebody. You can't have too many friends because then you're just not really friends. Now i think that if your somebody's friend that you should have their back no matter what. It's good to have friends and you can never have too many. I myself like meeting new people and making new friends. there are good people everywhere you just have to weed them out from the bad people. Everybody has good friends and bad friends, but really what matters most if that you pick your friends wisely.

something on my mind

2009-02-16T08:23:00.000-08:00

I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.

wow

2009-02-14T14:32:00.001-08:00

Dont you hate it when youhad something perfect or almost perfect in your grasp and you let it get away because you chose something esle. That's the worst feeling the in world. It makes you sick to your stomach day by day. Everytime you see that object or talk to that person you get upset with yourself because you knew you made a bad choice and when you tried to correct it, its just too late!! At that point yuou just wanna slap yourself dead i the face and say how dumb you are! LOL!

something to think about

2009-02-14T14:31:00.001-08:00

ok everybody, i know theres been a time after a break up where your trying to get back in the game and you go on a date with someone who you know is just plain wrong lol. The person your going on the date with is totally out of your league but yet you give it a chance just hoping sparks might fly LOL! Now i have my own personal story about it tha happened around october or november it was really crazy lol. I've always came home with funny stories to tell after each of these dates and i dont do it on purpose eventhough people think i do it just happens. All ima say is that this one particular night ended up with me gettin food thrown at me and the middle finger LMAO now alot of you know this story and how it happened it wasnt my fault jsut to let you know but for those who dont know the story let me know and i'll be happy to tell you! LOL. feel free to share your stories also :)

my favorite quote

2009-02-14T14:30:00.001-08:00

I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was
'You'll never find anyone like me again!' I'm thinking, 'I should hope
not! If I don't want you, why would I want someone like you

my ending to 2008

2009-02-14T14:27:00.000-08:00

well 2008 is over now i ended on a good note. i was proud of myself ..ing all my classes and passing them. i left all the exgf drama behind time to move on fresh i had to cut the fat lol. i can already see 2009 being a great year for me. i refuse to make the same mistakes i made in 08 into 09.

Valentines day

2009-02-14T09:05:00.000-08:00

In the spirit of Valentines Day i have decided to share this quote.... Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit. " Now some people dont believe in love but there are a few people out there that still do even after heartache. I truthfully believe that everybody can possibly love somebody even if they have been rejected or dumped by multiple people. The problem may not be you it could be them. Never let one rejection be the end of your life. Move on! For every one person that rejects you theres another 2 people who like you. Trust me it actually does work that way.